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thinkiing this thiinking tat..
den went to JB with parents to shopp awhile ..
body getting slightly weak already ..
body getting slightly weak already ..
because x3's getting heaviier ..
changiing my numberr soon i thiink ..
cause it will be e only way to help me to forget ..
cutting all the possiblities to be connected to him ....
learning to forget his number ..
his laughter
his silliness....
the memories we used to share .
everything ..
only this way i den can move on agaiin ...
its pointless for me to "laii zhe tah bu fang" anymore
i'm in no position to ..
and compared to other giirls outt there ..
a pregnant lady lik me ..
its far far outt of victory ..
i love him ..
butt loviing hiim i'll only have to grantt him watt he wants ..
i'll only drag him and his family down .
his future and everything ..
its nott his responsibility anyway ..
even if its his ...
i dont c a point anymore ...
i want a sucessful marriage butt nott a marriage for responsibilities ..
so i finally came to my mind tat ii should lett nature be ..
thou ii know ii saiid iit lotsa time ..
butt ii think ii justt have to be very fiirm this time ..
ii really hope he can be back to my siide ..
hugg me to sleep ..
bring me outt for supper..
wattch movee with me ...
shopping with me ...
argue with me ..
crapp with me ..
drooling on me when he sleeps ...
ii missed every bits of him !!
>.<
its realli a terrible process to lett go ...
XOXO only when tears started to fall tats when you feel the impact..





































