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justt to go over his granny's place to pass his granny thing ..
doesn't wan or know how to face his family .
so choosed to go earlier instead ..
reached thee place ..
no one was att home ..
so ii gave him a call ..
and came to reallise tat no one will be home cause they're att e chalet ..
so i hanged the call aftter tat ..
no knowing watt to do next
butt felt x3 is hungry ..
so went to boon lay markett to buy lunch for x3
walked the path we used to walk together to grab supper with his cousin
when i saiid i'm hungry ..
and couldn't decide to go home sleep or to eatt
things were so sweet tat time .
justt haviing him beside me
i've notthing to fear ...
naive thinking of me thot tat he will be there with me all along
from single to pregnancy to labour ward to a happy ending ..
justt ii simple wish from me ..
yett its so difficult for me to acchive...
bought lunch for x3 and went NTUC to buy things for my work place ..
once agaiin ii had flash back with him
on how sweet we used to on grabbing groceries together
follow by a walk in the rain back home .
the path used to be so familiar ..
a memory of 2 sweet couples holding hands , racing home , quarreling ...
things were so heart broken ..
when i'm all alone now ..
i've never felt this pain in my life ..
being forced to lett go the one ii loved so so much ..
thou its justt a 3 month relationship
butt ii can be so so much to be more painfull then ending a 1year plus relationship ..
i've alwaiis tried to take this relationship easy .
affraid of being hurt agaiin ..
butt outt of myself knowing ..
i've fell deeper in love with him ..
life was so torturing without him now ..
XOXO a relationship tat is forced to let go...





































