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its me updatiing agaiin aftter so long ..
nott in good mood today .
lottsa things to tink aboutt lotsa things tat i felt it untrue ..
lies ??
who knows ..
x3 growiing day by day ..
my pukiing feeling getting better ..
gonna c x3 in 6 more days !!
huuraayyy !!
butt need to take my blood for test >.<
tat's e worstt partt ..
going alone or with sweets ??
i no longerr botherr ..
ourr relationship were quite screwd up nowdays ..
his nott cleariing everything up ...
*tats watt i felt*
butt i've cleared mine ..
i no longerr hope for this relationship to work outt ..
cause ppl re realli nott workiing tat much for it ..
sayiing financial as a reason of nott getting marriied ..
butt a simple registration is all ii asked for ..
no ceremony required ..
asked him if his nott sure i'm the one he wannt
he say's no ..
den wat's his waiting for ??
nott say we're gonna spend lottsa money on e registration ..
its justt less den a hundred bucks ??
maybe i'm expectiing too much ..
its nott his responsibility anyway ...
why am i hoping so much
i'm in no state and position to do so anyway ..
butt iit justt hurtts ..
i'm realli very tiired over itt ..
thou iits justt a few days ..
butt things did nott eventually getts better ..
its still better ii stand alone ..
ain't iit true ??
with you around giving me fake hopes...
its justt a torture in my life ..
he ( MAH JIAN WEN )
has tortured me enuff ..
ii justt hope tat you don't turns outt to be e same as him ..
butt...
maybe i've seen too highly of you ..
maybe i shouldn't have trustt
anyone anymore .
friends and family is still the besstt
they've never hurrt me so badly like you guys ..
XOXO torn up lyfe ...





































